moody....

i dont like to share my sad things when i chat wif my fren coz it is like spoil the environment... but i used to write down my emotions when i lost control.....arh...
argh........
i really wish that i can gone mad .....
when i watched the teaching video which was being played by my lecturer , i was totally confusing in my heart.....i need to teach kids like this kind of way during my teaching contract years.... 5 years ah.......
i dont have the chance to walk on the runway.....
i cant even work in a company , a department.....
i cant even .....ah..... ah aha ah ahah.............
life is nothing.... work , sleep,, spend,, eat ,,,
i work with pain..... i study with regrets.... .... ah ah.... Santa Clause pls bring me away frm this world......
i wanna burn the contract.....
i wish that i'm a rich person, do lots of charity, cherish people life.....do what i want with no burden ......