short update

well, i just realised my blog is "peace" at the Oct !!
* anyway, i wish to get rid of the "silent killer" , God help me pls !! Perhaps doctor ??!!

This is invisible : )

I was subjected to the harshest part when my dude told me her feelings towards him . OMG , how could this ever happened since they are close frenz. < love perhaps ?? >

i admit i repress my real thoughts , i couldn’t manage to express it unless someone dig my heart >.< !! i just cant do that courageous conduct, dono y !!

But i endeavored to approach him slowly by giving my opinion about his status, commenting ... i’m trying my best !!

anyhow, nothing will quench my feelings , even though it was distracting ~.~

how wish i could give him the warmest hug =) “ eager”

pouring my thoughts soon

these few days , lot of thoughts spinning in my mind.
aft this week, i gonna pour my thoughts out !!!!!
keep it deeply in the heart really distressing ... ~.~

i'm speechless

Now , 6 sept 09 , 3.02 am ...
late in the nite !!! however i'm lost at somewhere else..
i shoudn't be like that,, i know!!!
i know by this time, i should go to sleep instead of wasting my time ..
i will be miss independent... my mission. . ~.~

susan说

- 原来改编自京剧,“苏三起解”.

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暗恋 - 第一次听就爱上了 !!

这几天

这几天，我都在听陶吉吉 ，太平盛世，这张专辑。反复的听，只能说创作得好呀！！我最爱 “爱我还是他”。 简直是某些人的生活写照，歌词丝丝入扣；音乐录像带更是赞 ！！剧情耐人寻味。你想当白玫瑰还是红玫瑰 ？？？ 白玫瑰纯洁，单纯 但 最吃亏，结局都好可悲。红玫瑰欢乐只在春宵 ，虽短暂但激情。两者都各有所长，如何抉择呢 ！！！

silly girl is meeee !!!!!

i just realised i applied the face moisture cream on my eyes area instead of eye cream..
oh no, i'm damn silly .
the two botol of cream looked exactly the same and i dint notice i used the wrong 1 ..
Luckily i discovered and felt so sorry to suffer my eyes.

loser..

who is the loser ? maybe is me..

Fool me

Previous situation : I used a spare laptop ( fujitsu ) since my acer sent to repair few months ago .After repaired , I left my acer at home then I continued to use fujitsu since many documents saved in it.

Sudden situation : bro informed me that still wana use that acer or dad gonna sell it. I was like y treat me like that ?? y sell my laptop ?? I said if wana sell , better sell fujitsu than acer. Bro told my dad insisted to sell my laptop.

Climax situation : ( on fire …. Angry with his decision ) After that, he gave me a reason. – ur acer got a liitle problem adi.
( when I used acer nothing got wrong, y he claimed like this ? totally an stupid excuse)
At last, bro revealed dad gonna purchase a brand new laptop for me. Then I was like saying my laptop must be blab bla……… I don’t want useless laptop .
Bro said “ hohoho, don’t worry , sure hebat than any of ur acer and fujitsu.”

* fooled me by getting me hot , however at last revealed the surprise.*

May the wind blow me away …….

I phoned my mum n she said is happy to receive my call, cause she missed me..
My brother did ask my mum “ y Yun didn’t come back ? ”
Hahaha, I miss them too…. Deeply in my heart
Not just that, my fren said they missed me too,, ( dono whether got cheat me anot ^ ^)
I know , I can feel it bcos how they feel are also the way I’m havin… =.=
( I need to bury my feeling, I know I’m useless , I need to overcome it )
I have a “ true n pure ” face. My feeling will indicate on my face
If people don’t really know me, they will feel so hard to breathe with me under the same shelter.
Okey, I’m trying to change it… I need an invisible mask , or maybe a remote control to survive right ??
My feelings are extreme….
When I feel happy, it does happy indeed,
When I’m sad , I pain , thousand of arrow stabbed thru my heart, bleeding..
When I don’t want to speak , I’m speechless ( doesn’t mean I’m moody )
When I’m tired, I will keep quiet and rest.
When I lose control, my tears drop , I can’t even tighten up the tap .
So… when next time I face a big trouble , maybe i will vanish in the air forever….
Life is unpredictable as stated at ronald’s blog..
His dad passed away all in a sudden , consequence of heart attack..
My cousin , mum for 3 cute children diagnosed breast cancer
2 Teachers in SMKTAR diagnosed cancer recently…
Even my relatives died because of cancer…

“ Human is nothing without few minutes breathe ”
I can quit my life also by pressing me nose for just few minutes BUT
I need to pay for my responsibility …
Think , think think, think, ……..
Human think for their lives
Nowadays statistics showed people think to quit their life…….

As a bloody conclusion, we can’t fight the destiny… but you can try it if u can bear the disappointment …….

* I’m here to release my tension and emotions, at this moment I struggling in the blue world , I’m sorry dear viewers..!!

holidays been counted

lazy Yun likes to count how much holidays she would has..
she found that this semester got more holidays coz many festivals fall on the end of year....
hahaha, sing a song 1st..
"Gotta get-get, gotta get-get
Gotta get-get, gotta g-g-g-get-get-get, get-get

Boom boom boom, gotta get-get
Boom boom boom, gotta get-get
Boom boom boom, gotta get-get
Boom boom boom, gotta get-get.......

it is ridiculous..

case 1 :
profile
- jacob Yeoh
- male
- born in 1985

background
- his grandfather is listed as among the richest person in m'sia, if nt mistaken is 6th in the property chart.
- their company runs lots of business, etc, hotel, shopping mall, ...

so, jacob works in his family's company and hold a position...
and u guys know wat kind of project is he handling.....
how lucky he is,,, his project is jacob's house

jacob's house is all about give him a land and a sort of money ( dono how many milions) n depends him on how to manage the whole project...

anyway , is just part of training his ability to manage a project...

my rojak stories......

- watching all sorts of entertainment programme. etc - ANTM , blackie teenage, kangxie & .....(american inventor is a funny show)

- just realise how important all kind of drinks for me. i'm crazy for it,i think i will gone crazy if my life is filled with plain water.

- u guys know y the johnnie walker - swing named as it ?? bcoz the design of the botol made it can't stand still .... ( taught by my stupid bro )

- don't really understand her brother very much, but felt pleasure to b his siblings
~ he is the victim of the recession..
~ already pokai , still want to buy wine!!! tell me y ??
~ loves to buy car's accesories
~ loves his Girl friend sooo much..
~ keep on telling me his dream car .
~ is a good helper, willing to help his lazy sister buy foods..
~ i can gain lots of knowledge from him..

- the USM
~ listed as apex, yet done such a big mistake .. felt ashamed of it..
~ my fren told me usm got lot of international student .. osh....is true
~ made our country reputation dropped ( especially politics)

- the trip
~ my mum said swine flu is sooooo terrible, then she said go to phuket n
phi phi island....(planning in progress)

- myself
~ can't stand with the melting-hot weather ,
~ wish to hav another cut for her short hair, too hot adi...
~ purchased something frm ebay, it is soooo funnn..
~......... bla la blaa....lalala......

update.^^

The exam is smiling to us, less than 1 week, yooho… I can go bck home after my exam,
this is what a bad student thoughts of going bck home rather than study…… aww….. sorry…. That’s keyun….
Before I go back home I gotta hav a hair cut …. I need a good stylist, which saloon suits me ???
Troublesome girl is me , I just wanna get rid of stupid saloon that spoil my hair….my hair will be short again… hehehe….. cant wait to cut it…. Ahahaha.
3 weeks holiday for me. Use the time wisely, this is the precious moment for the lazy ppl like me..but I think this holi will be different for me, is not the time for me to enjoy….
p/s : Gotta solve something that actually shouldn’t be part of me….

i read this.... even though ......

15 Apr 2009 by Juiza
The very first time I got into this job which was about 4 years ago, honestly, i pretty much 'hated' it. Whats with tight schedules, minimum rest hours, delays, passengers' complaints and the lists just went on and on and on in my head.. and oh, how could i forget getting up as early as 2 a.m to stand helplessly in front of the mirror to do my hair and make up? sounds crazy? welcome all, to this fantastic career of mine..

To me it's all hard work and though at times it sounds and yeah..might look glamorous ( no doubt it is!!), in heaps of ways, it is also physically challenging. Before getting the 'licence to fly', one must go through 3 months of intensive training which covers all the important aspects of flying such as Safety, Emergency and Procedures, First Aid, Inflight Services and also Cabin Familirizations. There will also be a series of exams to go on with and once graduated, supernumerary or obvesrvation flights will be assigned just to get you prepared for what actually this great career have to offer.

The primary and overriding responsibilities of a flight attendant is to ensure passengers' safety, which explains the high passing mark ( 90% ) on all exams. Might sound stressful but hey at 35, 000 feet above sea level, you have to accept the fact that any emergencies happened, the flight attendants will be the only one responsible to rescue any individuals under their care. In other words, the passengers' lives DEFINATELY lies in our hands.

Being a flight attendant at times, you have to sacrifice your personal life as well. How many times did i missed my loved ones' birthdays, weddings and so forth? Countless. How many times do i have to put on a genuine smile eventhough my mind is not really up to it? We were all trained to behave professionally even at the worst of times. Sometimes, you will be shouted and screamed at by the passengers as if everything wrong in this universe lies in your hands.. Sounds tough? But hey, put it this way.. nothing comes easy. If you really love and value your job, in time you will get through it. This is one of the best job in the world with the World's Best Low Cost Carrier 2009.. your hard work and dedication is definately paid off. Satisfaction guaranteed. Great, fun and caring working environment, I almost feel at home each time I am on duty!!! What else can i say? I am definately here to stay.

So..phheww..think you are up for the challenge? Come and join us and see for yourself. And it will be one of your life's greatest experience. See all the happy faces attached? Those smiles are real. Take my word for it.

what to do.....

what to do...
Been having this issue at the back of my head lately.

Damn.

May I ask, what the hell is wrong with the world? Why do we behave the way we do? I wish somewhere out there we lot can find our own peace.

Really, the world ain't such a nice place after all. The more you look at the state we are in, the more depress you get (at least for me, that's true).

Damn.

I need someone to clear my head.

* What happens when you're at the wrong side of the road?

i want .. i want.... " daddy i love u""

last month , some teachers were asking my dad whether wanna go for a tour..
it was the italy ... my dad phoned me up n asked me ... i was shocked that time...
later becos of the date was not suitable for him ,, then ok we forget about it...
i'm damn sad... i told them i'm so dissapointed.. ...
my dad is such a good person,, he offered me another trip going to New Zealand or Japan or har er bin- china.
actually i wish to go japan but my dad said NZ is a better choice .
ok, NZ loh, better than nothing...hahaha
then now bcos of the recession, the pound is cheaper now..
his fren suggested him go to Europe.. wau... europe is very xpensive leh...
i just cant figure it out whether he will bring me there anot...
he still planning....
daddy , i wanna go lah..... i just know that u love me so much ..ok !!!
if going to europe , i can past by many country like germany, uk, french......
wau... daddy ... i want.. i want.... u know i want de okie..

Don’t judge people at the first sight……

“ Wau , wau , wau……….is it true !!!!” this is my reaction when I get to know a simply normal person.. . basically, for the first impression we judge people through their outfit , personality……. So after I skimmed the person, , is like all right , nothing special….But , my sense is totally wrong…..
Case 1
A tour-leader , Mr Faizal from a renowned company.. so , normally tour- leader no need high qualification, they just undergo some courses to gain the certificate …. .. ok . ok.. He looks like a Chinese but he is a muslims… we communicate through Hokkien ua.. he is very funny at sometimes , so is like very suit the job… he told us his story, he worries his family, house, car, cash…….. “ landslide that reported in the news might affected my house….., Taman Bukit Antarabangsa…. My house is in the area…. Just now my bro phoned me up n asked me where I am n told me the condition.. . oh my gosh, my wife n my daughter , are they in the house during the landslide occurred.??? Luckily my wife n my daughter are not in the house …. How bout my house, dono got cracks or not ??? my car, I parked along the road…. My cash…..”
Oh , Taman Bukit Antarabangsa is a Housing Estate that mostly Datuk datuk stays ….
We r like ejek- ejek him , wau!! How cum u so rich …..
After that we get to know he graduated from one of the universities in Scotland,UK.. With a MBA holder…. …
How cum a Mba holder do this kind of job ???? interest?? Relaxing ??

Case 2
Berjaya corporation Berhad , M’sia launched a Berjaya uni college… my bro’s working place is around there…. He told me that Berjaya offers’ courses are much more xpensive than others…. This is bcos they r using something like 3D classroom, foreign lecturer, guarantee job after graduate….
Okey, the main point is not that , something I try to figure it out is the course consultant is a master holder…..
Master , masters ….. masters are around us ah……doing this kind of job.. is a waste…

* izzit recession caused this ???

Maybe a hawker , secretary , driver, hair stylist, ………r they having the master…….????
The world has changed ……

moody....

i dont like to share my sad things when i chat wif my fren coz it is like spoil the environment... but i used to write down my emotions when i lost control.....arh...
argh........
i really wish that i can gone mad .....
when i watched the teaching video which was being played by my lecturer , i was totally confusing in my heart.....i need to teach kids like this kind of way during my teaching contract years.... 5 years ah.......
i dont have the chance to walk on the runway.....
i cant even work in a company , a department.....
i cant even .....ah..... ah aha ah ahah.............
life is nothing.... work , sleep,, spend,, eat ,,,
i work with pain..... i study with regrets.... .... ah ah.... Santa Clause pls bring me away frm this world......
i wanna burn the contract.....
i wish that i'm a rich person, do lots of charity, cherish people life.....do what i want with no burden ......

A good listener that I want…

I want , I wish , I eager to hav a good listener …….

I wanna express my emotion…. Argh…..is just something that I can’t share it even with my best fren……erm… something about my future…… is just another path I wish to hav after I complete the teaching contract……. ..

I hav planned something…. Most probably I will do it….. it may hurt my parents …but,. Is just so sorry I can’t please them… Is my career , i must do what I happy…. I don’t care….

U can consider me as a stubborn person…..i’m just not happy at all.

My opinion, Career is not = money that can earned., is all about interest , passion…luck..

Parents , career must consider the Money, Time, Pressure……nothing about interest….

For this few years, my tears had been rolling down for the career stuff …..

I really so envy those friend that can study what they wish…..please appreciate it my friend….

Ah….. I need to be strong enough to face the problem….

Let me countdown for the age of 21….. the first step ……..i need the knowledge…. A brand new place that can cherish my life…..

I know that Is very hard to survive in that complicated market.. ……

May God is over my side giving me a helping hand…..

Hope that a good listener + good adviser + good consultant + good helper will appear soon……

Vacancy

- most preferably knowledgeable guy

- good in any fields… marketing, management , information technology , public relation, investing .. …………

- no limit for the age

- the reward is … ( I think it is the best thing what a real man want )….hahaha

* I think I’m mad….. crazy ……. May I crazy in my thoughts….. I’m bleeding in this real world…

i was mad.... for the stupid wireless ....

haiyo..... the stupid wireless in the sch really made my life sucked.... shit..... the facilities in the sch are like better than we dont hav lah...... the water machines from 3 left till 1....... please lah ,, rosak mah repair lah........haiz..... everything can rosak but please lah i wanna wireless ........ please maintain it.......... i think that sch cannot harap one.....i 'm just wanna hav a broadband , i dont wanna stay at an isolated island......i wanna connect wif the world...... i wanna c this n that .....
... amithaba

i'm glad to hear this

my parents said wanna bring me to a far place for my nxt vacation... oh my gosh...!!!!
is my dream place...... wau... i was shocked when they asked me.... .
i always thought that they will just bring me to asia country only.....
hahahaha..... hope that our plan will come true.....
thanks to my Papa & Mama.....

......

i rest my Case........